Last Post till Guat

OK... So tomorrow I will be leaving... I am so nervous and don't know why... It isn't like I haven't traveled to that country before... I can't sleep, I can't stay focused, I can't think...

I went to bed at 8pm last night, passed out... 10:56 I was wide awake, and my mind running circles, I finally fell back to sleep about 12, then woke up in a panic at 2am... Litterly sitting straight up on my bed trying to catch my breath from hyper ventalating... I had a very vivid bad dream... fell back to sleep abut 3:30 and woke back up at 4:30... Pretty much said forget it, and got up and made a cup of coffee... I cannot figure out what is wrong with me... I didn't have this much anxiety when I picked up Angelena... What is going on in the back of my mind that won't relax? I finished all my paperwork that need to be done prior to going to Guat, and sent it to my corrdinator to double check it cause my mind is being really flighty... She send me a LIST... BIG LIST... of stuff I have to redue on them... Out of 8 different forms, only 1 was right...

Anyway... So, here is another part of my plan... I will be taking my laptop, and if I can get Internet Connection at the hotel, I will post from there... But I am sure it will be only a little, as I am sure I will have my hands full with Angelo.

Well this will be my last post on US soil... So, thank you everyone for all your support, and I will talk to you later... Like, when I am a mother of 2! hahaha... OMG... Do you see that... of 2??????

HUGS

Ellie

I AM SO IN LOVE...

Everyday I feel so blessed to have this little girl in my life... I never knew the kind of Love I have for her ever exsisted. The look she gives me, the hugs and kisses out of no where, the grins when she is doing something bad and knows it, the smelly things that come out of her...The way she curls up on my lap..

She is getting more and more independent, and when she gets herself into something she can get out of... The "HELP ME" yell is adorable... She is talking so much more... We have been working on numbers...

Here is how the numbers go:

ME: One

Ang: Two

ME: Three

ANG: GO

I can't seem to get her to do 4... She thinks it is a game... Which it is... But, at least she knows 123 GO!

Or, another favorite, she will drop something and go to look for it, and can't find it... She will pop her head up with her arms out and say "Where it go"... I would tell her, I don't know, and she will say it again, "Where it go".. it is soooo dam cute.

As we crawled into bed last night, I looked at her and said, baby, this is our Last Saturday Night together with out your brother... She looked at me and said... OK... NITE NITE... As if she really did know what we were saying. We cuddled up and started to fall asleep. Then she jumped up and crawled up on top of me and got right up into my face, and said... MINE... I thought what are you talking about, and then she kissed me, and laid back down and went to sleep. I just wonder if she really knew what I said, and was thinking about it, wanted to tell me, I am her's... I will never know... But these are the kind of cute and adorable things she does...

Anyway... I will close for now, and say as I have always said... I LOVE MY LITTLE GIRL WITH ALL MY HEART... SHE IS THE BEST THING THAT HAS EVERY HAPPENED TO ME, and NOW, I WIL HAVE ANOTHER BEST THING HAPPEN TO ME IN A FEW DAYS...

HUGS
ELLIE

Travel Plans Set!

I will be leaving Sacrmento Saturday Morning (Friday Night) Midnight... Going to Houston, changing planes and arriving in Guatemala Saturday 12:33pm. I have asked that they bring Angelo to me that day. As, I can't wait to get my hands on him...

Here is our sch.:

2/2 Arrive in Guat

2/5 Embassy Appointment

2/6 Visa Appointment

2/7 RUN LIKE HECK AND COME HOME

We will be staying at the Grand Tikal on the 9th floor... Already confirm the reservation.

Angelena's foster mother will be coming to the hotel for a visit. She does know I am not bring Angelena, but she still would like to see me... So her and her daughter will come and spend an afternoon with us.

We were hoping Ginger was going to be able to come with us, but it doesn't look it is going to happen. She has recently moved and is starting a new job. She is planning on coming to CA, when Angelo is home, that way she will be able to see both my Guat Tots together at last.

There is so many people going to Guatemala around the time, I am sure we will be fine. I even know someone that will be there Monday moring to visit her Guat Tots and will be staying at the Grand Tikal... We have became pretty good friends of the last year or so.

I have meet many many family's through my adoptions, they have been a tremendous support. They know the ups and downs, and understands them. They don't give you comments that they just don't understand about. THEY ARE COMPLETE SUPPORT... AND I COULDN'T HAVE DONE THIS WITH OUT THEM... I LOVE YOU ALLL!

I also have a wonderful family that has been there through this with me, especially my mom. SHE IS ONE OF MY BEST SUPPORTS in these adoptions... She has been my bouncing board, for the good and yes, the bad too... I am SO SORRY MOM... I only hope I can be as big of an insperation to my children, as you have been to us. I know no one stronger than my mom... It takes a lot to take her down, and going through these 2 adoptions, I have been able to do that.... I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SORRY MOM... I know you have been my source of strenght, and I feed from you! When I felt that I just wanted to give up, you would tell me... Look at that little girl, and tell her you want to give up.... You have a cure for everything! Now in a few (HOPEFULLY) short weeks, we will have the newest little Guat Tot in our home.... AND I PROMISE HE WILL BE THE LAST! MY NEW MIDDLE NAME IS: NOAHAMORE... get it... No More!

HUGS FOR NOW!

Ellie

PINK PINK PINK PINK

I recieved my PINK slip for the US Embassy...

Angelo is coming home, He will be placed in my arms forever on Saturday, 2/2 or 2/3, our Appointment is for the 5th, and our Visa Appointment is the 6th, and we will be coming home on the 7th!

Now, off to planning...!

THANK YOU TO EVERYONE FOR ALL THERE SUPPORT!

2 ANGELS WILL BE TOGETHER FOREVER!!!!!!

LOVE YA!

THE PACKAGE ARRIVED IN GUATEMALA!!!

The DNA results arrived in Guatemala yesterday at 4:06pm. I have a copy of the DNA results, and they are 100%, no doubt that Angelo is the original child givin up at birth. No switching here... But we all know that, cause whats the chances of another child looking exactly like Angelena and not be related?

So, do you realize what my next post will be?

Got any clue?

Yep, you guessed it... WHEN I GO AND PICK HIM UP...

Now, here is the kicker, the US Embassy has 4 days to issue you an appointment, if you don't get it in 4 days, you can start stocking them. Well yesterday somones posted that their DNA was recieved at the Embassy on Monday, and the US Embassy issued them their Appointment Slip yesterday. Almost 48 hour apart. Their Appointment is on 2/1. So, now if I am so lucky... Our appointment can be either the 1st or 4th... IT JUST HAS TO...

So, keep your eyes open and keep checking...

HUGS
ELLIE

TIME IS TICKING SO SLOW

TIME IS TICKING SO SLOW

The next four days are going to be getting the best of me....

I have so much to do. Yet, I can't funtion.

I want this to hurry up, yet, I don't have enough time.

So here is my OFFICAL perdiction...

US Embassy received the DNA 1/16

US Embassy matches file and issues the Appointment Slip 1/18 - 1/22 (they have a 4 day waiting)

My appointment could be: 2/4-6

I can't even make my travel plans until they issue the appointment. I do know where I will be staying... Same place I stayed when I picked up Angelena...

Grand Tikal in Guatemala City.

I really like this place, and the people were friendly. They have an indoor swimming pool.. (not that I will go in it), they even had an underground mall that is attached to the hotel. Lots of places to go...

I JUST NEED TO KNOW WHEN!

2nd DNA SAMPLES ARE AT LABCORP

Edited to add: RECIEVED EMAIL THIS MORNING FROM PAT...

Hello Ellie-GREAT FANTASTIC NEWS

results are going out to the embassy today Fed ex tracking number ********** you can track them at www.fedex.com congratulationsI hope you will be bringing Angelo home real soon...send me an email if you get a chance when you get him back to the states...

YAHOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Results should be sent back to the US Embassy sometime this week. Once the US Embassy has the results, they will match them with our Case File, and issue us an appointment to come and pick Angelo up...

Can you believe this...

Angelo will be coming home in a few weeks....

Yahoo!!!!!

My Little Busy Bees.... And other Odds and Ends....

This is my nephew Johnnie, and My stinky butt Angelena... Here is the thing with this little peanut... Her Heart is as big a the world! She is a little helper... ANd if you don't let her help, she gets mad at you... Working with the Dolly Truck is her favorite, you see... We would take boxes in or out of the house and when the dolly was empty, she would through a fit to get on the dolly and go for a ride to get more boxes...

We were moving BOXES out of the house so we could bring the Christmas boxes in before Christmas... Now, look at her poss in this picture... She has the hip action working already... Oh, boy... AM I going to be introuble...

Let me tell you, this child amazes me every day... Something new comes out of her mouth... And yes, sometime you can understand her, and other time... WHO KNOWS! She sees people talking and she joins right in... What is so funny, is she has discovered her tongue... She is trying to use her tongue to say everything... And I think that is why half the stuff she says don't come out right.... Last night before I took her to bed, I told her I had to heat up her bottle (YES I STILL HEAT THE BOTTLE, ONLY AT NIGHT) (YES I GIVE HER A BOTTLE WHEN SHE GOES TO BED), she looked at me and said... BLAH BLAH BLAH BOBOL... I said yes, I am heating you Bottle... She looked at me and said... OK... WHAT??? When did she learn that... She ALWAYS says UHHA... And half the time it is NO, when she means yes... BUt, OK... OMG... She is like a little sponge... Takes everything in... I can hand her something and say, go give this to Grandma... She will run and give it to her... (of course I follow her, cause sometimes she gets losts)... She is getting so much better with the "Please" or as she says it "PEAZ", Thank you - TANK OU... Welcome... and Many Many more... She is my sweet little angel... That is growing up right before my eyes... PAUSE... Nope... Didn't work... Still growing!

Something that she hasn't stopped doing since day 1... Puts EVERYTHING IN HER MOUTH... My cousin says she is a little billy goat... She ALWAYS fines paper and tries to eat it... Some of her Hard CardBoard Book have cornors chewed off... I can't get her to stop... All I have to do is say... Whats in you mouth, and if there is nothing she will open her mouth wide so I can see there is nothing... BUt the minute she has something in there and I ask... She RUNS and tries to hide under the tables... She even likes to get into her diaper bag and chew on the velco ends of the diapers... Any suggestions would be helpful, except for Hot Peppers, that is just down right mean...

On to Angelo... He had his DNA done yesterday, so the results should be back to the EMBASSY next Friday... Once the embassy records them in, they will issue us an appointment to come and get him...

Now, I am on a mission this weeked to go shopping... I have to get BOY clothes... Diapers... Wipes, and other stuff that I will need for the trip, and when we get home... At this point, I wonder what he will look like in Pink... HAHAHA.. JUST KIDDING! I wouldn't do that...

A House Never Empty

No matter what we have to do, we always find time for family. When we were in TX, the only time any of the kids would come out there was durning their vacations. Now that we are shoulder high in boxes, don't even look in the garage... We always have family with us durning the weekends. It is amazing who much these kids get along... or rather say, don't have boxing matches.

When I first brought Angelena home she was afraid of everyone. Including the kids, she had to be clung to me the whole time, (which I didn't mind).... Now... when they walk in the door, she runs in circles, yells, jumps with excitement... Mommy who... Yep... I am a thought in the dark at that point... But that is good...

I love to see just who much these kids love each other. I told all the kids, Angelo will be home in a few weeks, and Oh Boy... Excitement in the house... We all sat down and watched the video I got of him last week, and were talking... The boys all agreed they were going to teach him boy stuff, cause me not being married, he needed a boy roll model... I thought that was so sweet... Later that day, the kids were playing XBOX, and I heard one of them say the "F" word... I called him into where I was and by the time he got there he was crying... I told him, I am not going to hit you, or yell at you, I am just going to talk to you... And I explained, I don't allow that in this house. Does he want Angelena walking around saying that word? I told him I don't want to hear that ever again... He was ok, and said sorry... Then I said... Are you going to teach Angelo those words? He started laughing and said, he can't speak english...

I busted out laughing, and didn't even get a chance to explain... That is another day...

I know that these kids love each other so much, and this is what I wanted for Angelena even before I knew about Angelo. I was on a mission to bring my family back together, and it appears to be working... Now, in only a few more weeks, Angelo will be coming home! Yahoo...

The suspense is killing me!

HUGS

Thoughts....

Have you ever just laid in bed and watched your clild sleep? You wonder what she is dreaming about, you watch her facial expressions, you see her burst out with laughter.... But, you really don't know why... So why would you start laughing with her? I think I figured this out at 3 am this morning.... Your heart lights up cause you see your child in her most inoccent moments in life, and you know they are happy, which makes you happy...

On the flip side, what about those nights when she is sleeping and she has a frown on her face? or when she yells out... NO... Do you wonder what is going through her mind then... Yes... Do you want to wake them up cause they are having a bad dream... Yes... But do you wake them up... NO... (NEVER WAKE A SLEEPING BABY, THEY GET MORE PISSED OFF AT YOU!)

Do you ever wonder what they are trying to say to you, when they babel? You ask them what are you trying to say? And they repeat exactly what they said prior... SO you know in their minds they are saying the say thing... But what is it???? Why do after they repeat it 2 times, you still have no clue, but answer them YES? What if it was No Answer? What if they are saying "Can I go play in the middle of the street?" I have a new answer... I love you too!... Better safe than sorry!

Do you ever wonder... (OF COURSE... that was a stupid opening...) what are they going to be when they grow up? A Doctor, Lawyer, Teacher, stay at home mommy... Which ever it is, you KNOW she will be successful, cause you are instilling values in her now...

I so wish I could see in the future, read minds, understand babel talk... If only my crystal ball could tell me the answers, my magick wand helps me provide the saftey and understanding, I would be rich...

I have been taught that things happen for reasons, I have said this many times, aloud and on this blog, to friends and family.... Now, I do believe this, but now, I want to know the reasons. I have also always said, we may not know the reasons now, but someday we will find out the reasons.... Someday is here - SO TELL ME! WHY, WHY WHY...

Why is the sky blue

Why can't I sleep at night

Why can't my WHOLE family be safe and happy

Why can't we have perfect world

Why can't we have everything we want

Why can't we see the future

Why does it hurt so much when we don't have what we want now... (ANGELO - Granted he will be home in a few weeks)

Why is the Guat Gov being STUPID for all those kids waiting to come home(for those who read this that don't follow the Guat Adoptions Laws - major changes have taken place, and all the kids that have been waiting to come home have pretty much hit a wall, pending more stalled time)

Why do things change from hour to hour? Roller Coaster ride after Roller Coaster ride...

In my closing of thoughts... I know what is going on in Guatemala will not effect Angelo coming home. BUt is has effected 1000s of children waiting to come home... And I know many of these families, and can only pray that Prayers will be answered... The torment that the Guatemala Government is putting these family though is unbearable at times to say the least. I feel that many of these families are a part of my family, and those kids are like my nieces and nephews...

So with this I want my "Family" to know, I am with you all 100%

HUGS
Ellie

DRUM ROLL PLEASE...

We have word that the Birth Certificate has been issued...

We have word that the Passport has been issued...

OUR DNA Payment will be processed tomorrow....

DNA will be taken the beginning of next week....

Once the DNA come back, which will be about 2 weeks, we will know the date we go and PICK UP ANGELO!!!!

OMG... WE ARE SO CLOSE!!!!!

THE NESTING STAGE

Now, let me remind everone that we moved middle of Nov. Angelena has been sleeping with me , and we have been using her room for a "Catch All"... With the unexpected news we are out of PGN on 12/17, we figured we needed to get working on the kids room!

Here is a before:

More of Before:

And After:



Mind you, we are still in the process of getting it all together, but I must say, it is a pretty good start... I still can't find the boxes for the beddings, curtains, and all the Pooh stuff... But, heck, any improvement at this point will do... Just don't look at my room now!

HUGS