Thursday, September 28, 2006

WE ARE OUT!!!!!




ANGELENA IS COMING HOME!!!!!!!

The biggest roller coaster ride of all .....

Picture this... Tuesday afternoon my home phone rang and I wasn't home. No one left a message. I check caller ID, and it is the Adoption Agency... I worry all night, send emails trying to find out why they called. Wednesday morning Olga from the agency calls, and said that a very good source indicated that I sould be getting out of PNG sometime this week. So, great that sounds good, but in the back of my mind, I am thinking, ok the end of the week in Guatemalan time is 2 weeks... Thursday mid morning, I get an email form Olga and she sends it out to everyone that is working with the agency - about a concern.... This is a part of the email....

"Dear Families!
We are well aware of what is about to hit all the big lists today about Guatemalan adoptions. We know that there will be a panic among the families whose cases are in process. The Guatemalan government has tried to slip in some legislation to stop all adoptions, even those in process. This is what happened. There is a new piece of legislation which will halt adoptions, which in on the president’s desk waiting for signing. Somehow, one of the adoption attorneys got a hold of this document (this was obtained unknown to the president) and the ADA (Association for the Defense of Adoptions..i.e. adoption attorney group) called an emergency meeting last night with any adoption attorney who could get there, to discuss their attack. There is no way at this moment to know what the outcome will be, and if we find out that families need to do anything, we will let you know. Guys, we have good people working with us in Guatemala. They need our support to fight their cause and we are prepared to assist. JCICS, the agency’s professional organization, may also be making a public statement about what exactly the situation is. Therefore, we encourage everyone to PRAY and to keep your spirits up…because this is more than a social attack.. it is also a spiritual attack."


OK, can you say PANIC.... I completely flipped out, started crying etc.... Of course I am work, I get up and walked out of the office and try to compose myself.... I finally come back into the office and re read the email in full... As I am re-reading it, Olga calls.... She says... Ellie, are you sitting down, I said, yes I just got your email and am flipping out... She said, I figured you would, but I wanted to call you and tell you, YOU ARE OUT!!! I couldn't breathe, I kept crying, couldn't talk, all I could do is say thank you... She said she had a copy of the Adoption Decree and would forward it to me.... IT IS OFFICIAL.... ANGELENA IS COMING HOME!!!!!

OMG... I have so much to do, and am so excited, I keep crying everytime I think about it.





We Start the long Path from here

I hope you will enjoy your walk as we journey along the path of Life.

The Path can take many turns and many crossroads,


from the day we are born we start along it never knowing where its going to lead us next.

All through life we will pick up knowledge as we walk the great path,


learning and seeking it out from whatever path we are on.

So come walk with me along this great path as I share with you some of what I have learned




So this is what is next:


The Birth Mother signs the final adoption decree


A New Birth Certificate is issued


Complete Case file is Translated to English


Everything is submitted to the US Embassy


They issue an Appointment for me to come and sign


Pickup the Visa


COME HOME....




Estimated time table... 3-4 weeks!




BREATHE...




Wednesday, September 27, 2006

Happy 5 Month Birthday Baby....



It has 5 whole months since you were brought into this world. You are the most beautiful child I have ever seen....

I watched the newest video I received of you, and listen here little one... YOU HAVE MY ATTITUDE!!! I don't know how you developed that in just the few days we weree together... But, I love it!

Waiting by Eileen Ramage

The endless days with no escape
Thoughts of you in distant place
One picture printed on my mind
Eyes closed or open I see your face.

Joy and sadness fill my days
My heart and soul are aching.
I long to see you soon again
To end the eternal waiting.

I've become a stranger to myself
A stranger I now know.
I am the one I used to be
So many years ago.

motions I thought I never had
Have now come shining through.
The life that glows within me now
Could be because of you.


I LOVE YOU PRINCESS

Mommy

Friday, September 08, 2006

FRIDAY'S IN THE ADOPTION WORLD




My whole life, I always looked forward to Friday's, as I am sure everyone does. But here in the adoption world, you dreed Fridays. Why you ask?

This is my theory of the life of a Case File for Adoption In Guatemala...

1) Its Friday Night, Your case is sitting in a office on someones desk that is not looking at it for 2 days.
2) Knowing that the next time someone is going to look at is MONDAY.
3) As I said above..... IT IS MONDAY
4) Tuesday rolls around and the person has to remember what they were doing with you case last week...
5) Wednesday, they realize, ok, I need to do this with the file. Opps, its lunch time.
6) Thursday, Oh ya, the file, I forgot, cause I took an extended lunch on Wednesday.
7) Ok, now where was I.... Well, it is Thurday Night, and I can't get anything done till after the weekend...
8) Friday Morning.... This file can wait till Monday, I am tired and have work all week...

Next step, see #1

So you see... We all have hope in the begining of the week, then as the week lingers towards the end of the week, all hope is lost.

I know, everyone is telling me to be postive, and I am trying, but, I just need to have my Daughter Home...
I received a few more pictures yesterday...

YES SHE SMILES!!!!!!!!!! Such a pretty little baby cake... I wonder who is going to squeez them cheecks.... I know who has already....
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YES SHE CRYS !!!!!!!!!!! Sort of... this is more of a stop the camara thing... OR NO MORE CHEECK SQUEEZING...
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YES SHE HAS ATTITIUDE!!! (SHE MUST TAKE AFTER HER MOMMY)

Ok.... NO COMMENTS ON THAT ONE!!!



Wednesday, September 06, 2006

Things that help the day go by better........



A FACE ANY MOMMY COULD LOVE.....



HOW CAN YOU NOT LOVE THIS LITTLE THING???













AND LOOK AT THOSE PONY TAILS...



Just look at these pictures. I recieved them today, at work. I can't help but look at them and cry... With her big brown eyes, she is saying, "Well Mommy where are you? Why haven't you come to take me home yet?"

SO my mission in life:

GET : ANGELENA HOME
BE: HEALTHY
HAVE: FAITH

I know it will be anyday that I get that call. THEN, I AM LEAVING ON A JET PLAN... DON'T KNOW WHEN I WILL BE BACK AGAIN.... Opps, wrong song!!!

All I know is, I need her and she needs me..





Sunday, September 03, 2006

THANK GOD....




The weekend is almost over... This is one of the longest weekends in my life... I can't even tell you! I know that PGN had a holiday or two like we did, but, this waiting is killing me. I figured out we have been in PGN for 6 weeks now. I have seen people getting out of PGN that went in around the same time I did. I am getting very anxious.

I picked up a little bookcase that matched Angelena's crib, and put it in her closet. I originally was going to put shelves across the wall, but the bookcase will work! AND way less work for me! I also, finally cleaned out her closet from Christmas. I had stached a bunch of stuff in there, and never packed it away. Now I need to get a few bins to put on the shelves in her closet to organize things... I checked some out on ebay, but think I will wait a while to see what is on sale...

Otherwise her bedroom is actually done. I have her name up on the wall with sponge letters. They are pretty cool. I noticed the the 2nd "N" was backwords. That is so original... I couldn't have planned it any better!

When we were in Guatemala, I purchased a wind chime. It is a bunch of Angels that are standing and sitting in different postions, and they are all holding a musical instrument. The chime is made out of clay. I want to hand it in Angelena's room, but not sure where. Right now I have it hanging off her little coat rack. You know what the ironic thing about that coat rack... Christina made it for grandma, when she was in High School. Kind of neat!

Well enough rambling...

Sweet Dreams.
Ellie

Saturday, September 02, 2006

A Letter to Angelena...




I sit here tonight, constantly thinking of you. Knowing that the decisions I make in my life, is no longer just my life, but OURS. No matter what happens, I will always love you and ensure you are well taken care of. Life can take many directions, but know in your heart, there is only one direction... Yours... No matter what people think or say, follow your heart, and know that when you look back at your decisions, you did what you thought was right, even if it didn't turn out the way you wanted it.

Everyone learns by their mistakes, and no matter what mistakes are made, you will only be a stronger person. I will always be there to hold your hand, be that extra shoulder, and when you are down, I am there to hold you always and forever.

I dedicate the song "You'll Be in my Heart" form Phil Collins to you... I listen to that song so often, and have read the word, day in and day out, knowing that you and me are now and forever more.

I love you baby and need you now more than ever, and want you to know.... Just look over your shoulder and I will be there.... My heart is aching for you to be in my arms. Life has thrown me another hard ball, and I am fighting with all my might, for you, a fight that someday you will understand... As I have said before, things happen for a reason, and we may not understand why or even like it, but, there is a reason for everything...

So you hang in there baby, because I am going to look into the sky tonight at those same stars you see, and make a wish for both of us. Knowing that we are this close, I AM NOT GIVING UP... I am coming for you soon, and you are coming for me... WE ARE SUVIORS and NOTHING IS GOING TO CHANGE THAT.... That is my promise to you...

I love you... Always and Forever...

Mommy