Monday, November 05, 2007

How did I do it last time?
My Mayan Calender just keeps moving, round and round...
It doesn't stop, yet time stands still,
Every moment I know nothing,
seems like a life time of waiting.
Knowing the Unknown,
Hoping for the Unknown,
Needing time to figure time,
The web that was woven,
Promises Broken,
Dreams Fading,
Prayers Saving,
Heart Aching,
Not Knowing,
Hoping,
Wishing,
Praying...
When will it end...
I have been filled with 1000 times of emotion, not knowing what to say, or how to anwer people... The past 3 months seem to be never ending, Constant Disappointment, Constant Lose...
I find thing to look forward to, and then have hope, then... BLAM..
Hit in the face...
I think I need a break...
I need a friendly face...
I feel like I am going to crack...
But guess what...
I don't have time for it~
Imagine that...
We will be moving in a couple of weeks, so this will take my mind off of things...
I am staying strong for my baby girl... And everytime I look into those beautiful Dark Brown Eyes, I say a little prayer that one day she will finally meet her siblings.
For, I am the youngest of 5, and wouldn't know what to do without my brothers and sisters. Granted, they don't all live close, and we don't talk on a daily occurance, but I know they are there.
Family is family...
Once I get my computer back up and running, I will be posting OH SO MANY PICTURES... My little princess is getting so big... And talk about her personality... I could go on and on with that one!
Just know... She is my Angel and my light! And yes, I am wrapped around her little finger... Index finger... Middle finger... Pointer finger... and yes even thumb... If I know what to call all her toes, I would say I am wrapped around them too!
She has been to a birthday party, her baptism, just playing with her cousins... SLEEPING... And of course her new funny face... She know what the word Fart is, and she make this really funny face, and pushes as if she is trying to break wind... I wonder which uncle taught her that???? OR, who taught her what a BOGGIE is...
Yes, even in church, she decided to dig for gold... OMG... OMG... Yes...

2 comments:

Ginger--Maya's mommy said...

Okay, that is it, I am coming to see you. I am about as friendly as you can get right now.

bodegalee said...

Oh Ellie,
(((BIG HUGS))).... and yes, where are you? Where are you moving? You know my email - can you mail me?

I'm here - will support you to the ends of the earth in person to get this kiddo home - AND he is coming home! I know the whole timeline thing is terrifying and should certainly qualify as I dont really know squat since I'm not in your shoes.. But I know enough to know where you're coming from. We're doing Andrew's big Tol Party - NOT big just a few close friends the Sat after Thxgiving...late afternoon.. if there's anyway you could come we'd LOVE to see you! And if not we've got to connect sometime soon! Take good care and know I"m thinking of you!!

Leigh