Guatemala Adoption Lingo.....

PGN = PGN

KO = Kicked Out

PGN= Equivalent to the Attorney Generals Office in US

KO meaning=Your paperwork that was sumbitted into PGN had something wrong with it

Now you ask me: Ellie, why are you giving us a lesson on this nasty two letter "KO" that everyone in the Guatemalan Adoption world hates to hear?

Ellie's Answer: BECAUSE, ANGELO'S CASE WAS KO ON FRIDAY FOR A STUPID MISTAKE...

Now for Ellie's little RANT:

Before you turn any of your paper work in to Guatemala, you go over it with a fine tooth comb, making sure everything is in order, they the cordinator goes over it, then it is sent to Guatemala for Translantion... So everything I and my wonderful Coordinator did was good. Once it is done being translated, it moves thought several places...

My case was at the last place, prior to the Adoption Decree being Approved, and we get a KO for a cross out on some paper work... A CROSS OUT... NOTHING WE DID, CAUSE ALL OUR PAPER WORK WAS RIGHT! IT WAS SOMETHING FROM GUATEMALA... Now, why wasn't this caught before it was sumbitted? Why wasn't it checked and checked again? Why were we so close, then get Angelo's case tossed out? Why once it is fixed, will we have to start the waiting ALL OVER AGAIN? With the end of the year coming in fast, we may not be out of PGN before the end of the year. Why did I have my heart set that Angelo would be coming home and not not be caught up in the problems that are going to be happening at the end of the year... Is Angelo really going to come home? Is this really going to happen? Is his case going to be stuck in Guatemala forever? Do you see all these questions.... GUESS WHAT... I DON'T HAVE ANSWERS... NO ONE DOES...

Yes, this is CRAP... Yes, we are doing everything we can to bring him home. Yes, my heart is aching, and YES, I FEEL LIKE CRAP and no I have NO ANSWERS...

My only mission in life now is... GET THAT LITTLE BOY HOME TO BE WITH US... HE NEEDS US... HE IS 6 Months old... Angelena was home when she was 5 1/2 months... SO YOU SEE... THERE ARE DELAYS...

Ok, now I will get off my soapbox, crawl in a corner and finish crying... Before Angelena see me!

Kisses in the Wind

I hold you in my heart and touch you in my dreams,

You are here each day with me, at lease that's how it seems.

I know you wonder where we are... what's taking us so long,

But remember child, I love you so and God will keep you strong.

Now go outside and feel the breeze and let it touch your skin...

Because tonight, just as always, I blow you kisses in the wind.

May God hold you in His hand until I can be with you.

I promise you, my darling, I'm doing all that I can do.

Very soon, you'll have a family for real, not just pretend.

But for tonight, just as always, I blow you kisses in the wind.

May God wrap you in His arms and hold you very tight.

And let the angels bring the kisses that I send to you each night.

--Unknown

Just a little something for Baby Angelo...

I am so wishing you were here with us right now.

I love you bery much, and want you to know Momma and Sissy will be coming for you someday soon.

Angelena's Special Day

With everything that has been going on resently, I forgot to post...

On Oct 27, 2007 - Angelena will be Baptized! We have a wonderful day planned out.

Saturday we have to be at the church by 9:45 am, and then once it is over, we will be having the reception in the Parish Hall.

I pretty much have everything that can be done, done... I have to go to reherrsal Thursday night, decorate the hall Friday night, pick up the food Saturday morning at 8:30am, take it to the hall, get Stinky ready and be in the church by 9:45.

Angelena's God Parents are my Sister Kathy and Brother Kevin.

Nina Kathy bought Angelena the most beautiful dress for this special occasion, along with a little tira! I still have to figure out how to do the her hair... I sure do hope it isn't a bad Hair Day for her!

Also, when I was in Guatemala visiting Angelo, his foster mother took him to a priest to be blessed because he wasn't doing to well, and she was worried. She had a Baby Rosary on him, and I had asked her if I could have it and bring it home, she said yes. I origianlly wanted to have Angelena and Angelo baptized together, but he won't be home soon, so I said I would go ahead and have Angelena done. I plan on pinning Angelo's Baby Rosary onto Angelena's dress somewhere, so she will have a part of her Brother with her.

I looked and looked for form Baby shoes for Angelena, and just couldn't find the ones I wanted, I went to a "Special Shoe Store" and found some White Baby HIP TOPS, with Silver bars on the side, I didn't buy them, but OH SO WANTED TO! They looked so cute, but for $75.00 don't think so! THEN 2 weeks ago, Erika and Joey were at the Farmers Market, and there was a shoe man there and they found the perfect pair of shoes for the Baptism. They are white with Silver writting on the top, in spanish - MY BAPTISM.

When we first brought Angelena home from Guatemala, Auntie Kathy bought a gold braclett that Angel spelt out. IT was way to big for her, but I have kept it in my drawer, and guess what... IT FITS HER PERFECT NOW... So she will also be sporting a gold braclett...

Grandma, Angelena, and myself set out on a mission last weekend to find the perfect Candle and Sash. Sure enough... FOUND IT... It came with a little Shell for the water, and a little rosay, and a childrens bible in spanish.

Let me tell you, with Angelena only being 18 months old, I have saved so much of her "FIRSTS" that I am going to need a BIGGER trunk to store them all in.

I have the outfit that she was handed over to me in, her home coming dress, first pair of shoes, Guatemalan Blanket from Guatemala, her first Guatemalan Outfit, her Helmet, her favorit toys, etc... Let's just say A LOT OF STUFF.

Something I acutally even started for Angelo. I already have the outfit that he came home in from the hospital. His foster mother bave it to me when I was there. I have his DVD and Pictures... NOW ALL I NEED IS HIM!

And now ~ I am having issues with getting my I171H extended. It has taken me since July 14 to get that straightened out, and it looks like it should be done 11/2. We have to go to Sacramento to do a Sworn Statement infront of Home Land Security, because mom's finger prints are not readable.

Anyway... I don't know when I will be able to post again, so I just wanted to let everyone know what was going on.

FOTO FRIDAY~!

~NEW CAPTION~

"PLEASE SENOR PGN MAN LET MY BRO BRO OUT SO HE CAN COME HOME"

(Doesn't it look like she is praying? This is actually her 1st Birthday as she was wearing... I mean eating her birthday cake)

GOTTCHA DAY!!!

One year ago today, Angelena was placed in my arms forever.This day seems only like yesterday. It has been an amazing year. I will cherish every moment, and have a BOOK of pictures to document it.

I love my little girl, and wouldn't know what I would do with out her.

I am a single Mom, and come to realize my life will never be the same again, and I LOVE THAT THOUGHT...

BUt, here is a few things I never realized would happen:

I can never go to the bathroom by myself

I never thought I would change a dirty diaper without gloves(that was short lived)

To hear thoses magically words just grabs my heart - I WUV MOMMA.

A child can NEVER have to many clothes(mom's habit stopped, baby's habit began)

I can't wait to get home to see her everyday

and last but not least -

I would have never believe you if you told me a year ago, that I would be in the process again for her baby brother!

THANKS FOR THE AMAZING YEAR PEANUT! MOMMA WUVS YOU SO MUCH~

My Princess...

(WITH HORNS and a FORK!)

First, this is one picture I DID NOT CHOOSE... But, hey, I love them all~ The winner was:

#14 - 28 votes total - So, I have ordered that, and the Slide Show, so I will still get them all... So if anyone is interested in the Photographer, she did an amazing job, and is in Northern CA. Please send me an Email!

I have been TAGGED.... By GInger

JOBS THAT I HAVE HAD:
Telesales for Insurance Company

Cook at Bowling Alley

Bank Teller

Inventory Supervisor

IN/OUT Cash Balance for Bank

Merchent Card Banking

Tax Preparer

Operations Manger for Tax Company

Research Rep for Law Firms

Service Rep for Law Firms

PLACES THAT I HAVE LIVED:
ILLINOIS
CALIFORNIA
TEXAS

FOODS THAT I LOVE:
CHICKEN
CHEESE
MEXICAN

PLACES THAT I HAD RATHER BE:
HOME WITH MY FAMILY
GUATEMALA PICKING UP ANGELO

MOVIES I LOVE:
DIRTY DANCING

SHERK

T.V. SHOWS I WATCH:
NOTHING PARTICULAR

BOOKS I LOVE:
FICTION

I AM TAGGING:
WENDY - Ahren & PBJ

ALLEEN - GABRIELLA's Mom

COURTNEY - MY BLOG BUDDY

AUNTIE G - Johanna Faith MOM

ANGELENA PHOTOS

http://www.sarahmetzphotography.com/angelena/enter.html


Please go to this link and check out either the Slide Show or the Gallary, and tell me which you pictures you like....

I can't decided... I like them all!

As for my previous post...

Cindy is now with Christina in Heaven. Thank you to everyone for your prayers!

Ellie

WHY GOD?

It took me a very long time to find God again. I lost my faith, years ago, and finally found my way back to him. I have taken him into my heart, because he make me who I want to be.

I questioned my faith in the past, turned my back on it, ventured out to other religions, but found my way back.

Now GOD is testing my faith again.

No more TEST... I am here. I need you... WE NEED YOU now more than ever. I have prayed all night, asking for Miracles... I have faith in Him to do what has to be done.

I know that when it is time for people to go, HE take them... Please don't take this now, not yet, not this way. I am not questioning my faith, I am embrassing my faith.

Please everyone, anyone, please pray for my sister in law Cindy. The next few hours are critical.

Thank you