The Path to My 2 Angel's

Questions and other thoughts...

First... HOW DO YOU GET A BABY OFF FORMULA?

The doctors told us to start givining her whole milk... SHE DON'T LIKE IT... she would rather have the formula... This is a fighting battle in the house... AND WE ALL KNOWS WHO WINS THESE BATTLES....

Paper work... After all my paper work has been completed for Angelo, sent off to the state for them to Certify it and then to get it Authenicated... GUESS WHAT... I get a call Friday on my cell phone for the Secretary of State, and of course I don't have my phone on, and don't realize there was a call until late in the evening... All the messages says is, who it was and she had something to discuss with me about my paperwork... And here I was thinking it was already on its way to Guatemala... Oh, and did I tell you... It is Friday... Don't know if you all remember back when I started Angelena's adoption... Weekends in the Adoption world SUCKS... Everything stops and days are wasted.... So now we have to wait till Monday to see what the heck is going on...

Angelena... Have I mentioned lately just how much I love this little peanut? She has an amazing little spirit... Or should I say HUGE SPIRIT! She loves to kiss, smile, laugh... oh and RUN!... She knows where my buttons are and yes she KNOWS how to push them!!! She even knows how to push the buttons on the computer when I am trying to type!!! She is my little goof ball! I so love to wake up on a Saturday Morning with her face looking at me... Like... WELL, are you going to get up and play with me? She kisses me until I wake up, this morning, I fate sleeping to see what she would do... And guess what... She stood up and leaned over and kissed me, and then thought she was going to get off the bed... All I said was... what are you doing, and she started to laugh! Opps... I slipped... Yes she is sleeping with me in my bed... I don't know where to start on this one.... When we were in TX, she would take naps, and sleep at night by herself in her own room, with her night light on. When I finally got to CA, she wouldn't let ANYONE put her in her crib, she sobbs when you put her in there... It breaks my heart, so I started to let her sleep with me... Then in the middle of the night, I would put her in her crib... OF COURSE, if she ALLOWS IT... Sometimes she will have a fit and want to get out of it, and I give in... I was told this change was due to a few things... 1) the seperation from her Birthmom, 2) then the seperation from her Foster Family, 3) then when we moved to CA, I sent her and grandma ahead and meet up about about 2 weeks later... So, it seemed that everytime she felt secure, something would change... Now not only did she miss me, but her room has changed, and yes even her crib... (I broke her crib so I had to get a new one)... She is even throughing Temper Tantrums, yes... she thoughs herself on the floor, and screams and kicks... Kind of Cute, but not good... I think everything is going to just take time again to adjust and she will be fine. Today we are going to go a watch Angelena's Cousin John play soccer. Then we have to come back home and do some things around the house to get ready to go... see below....

New York... Well I have been back with Angelena now for 3 weeks, and now I have to leave her again for a week... I am going to NY for some training. I will be there for a week, and then fly home Friday night... Can't get home fast enough...

Angelo... I wonder what he is doing, what changes has he made. I did get an update and was told, he lost a little weight, he is now 5 lbs. The doctors gave him some Iron and Vit. for him to start to grow. They also indicated that he had New Born Jaundice, and shouldn't worry about it, the foster mom was directed to put him in sunlight. I am starting to get the itch of going for a visit, but financial I just can't. I DO GET TO SEND A PACKAGE TO HIM... MY VERY GOOD FRIEND GINGER, will be going to pick up her daughter Maya in Guatemala at the end of the month, and the agency has agreed to let the foster mother pick up the package... Ginger will be there waiting for her to come, and she may be bringing Angelo, and Ginger said she will get TONS of pictures for me! Kind of exciting, happy and sad, all in one... Exciting - someone is able to actually see how he is doing. Happy - Aunttie Gin will get to be the first person that will get to meet him... Sad - I wish I could be there to meet him too.... Ginger was with me the first time I meet Angelena, I was with Ginger the first time she meet Maya, and Ginger was with me when I picked up Angelena... I only wish SO bad that I could be there when Ginger picks up Maya, and meets Angelo.

CA... I am home, and am SO happy to be here... I get to see all my love ones, and not rush to see them... We actually get to have time to visit. Everyone is getting so big.... I was asked yesterday how old one of them were... I said I really don't know, I have lost 2 years... I don't even know what schools they are in anymore... Kind of crazy I know... But weird... And, there are HILLS.... LOTS OF THEM... I go across the bridge everymorning, and think, I have lived her for 30 something years, and never really appreciated the views... I have come to realize that I took alot for granted, and then realized how much I really missed CA... The green hills that turn brown in the summer, the days you can drive your car to work with your sun roof open, I was here when the newest bridge opened, and I get to be here when the next new bridge opens latter this year... I get to go to the Pow Wow downtown, the famers markets, flea markets, hearing the dolphins and seals in the winds in the early morings, (we live closed to Marine World), wake up in the moring hearing the birds sing and the wind chimes chiming...I see the ships coming into the bay and docking, I read the names on them and see where they came from. I see the Moth Ball Fleet a float, and think, there is alot of storys behind each and everyone one of those ships out there, I got to be here when Delta and Dawn found there ways under the bridges and back out into the ocean... (Whales that were lost and swam up the Sacramento river). I only thing that I really miss alot is my dogs. We couldn't bring them were we are staying, so my brother and aunt has been so gracious to allow us to leave them with them until we can get out own place. Jasmine is 15+ years old, and has some health problems. I need her to be with me, as I know her time is going to a close soon, and she was one of my first baby's.... Honey is starting to get artheritis in her front legs, and needs to take medicine now. I look at there pictures all the time.

TX... Almost a good bye, but not completely. The house still hasn't sold. And I have friends that I will always love... And only wish I know why people change over night... It seemed that the minute a few people found out I was leaving TX, they became distant. But, that may just be a way they cope with things... Kind of sad, but understanding. And, my BLOG FRIENDS THAT ARE IN TX!!!! MANY HUGS TO THEM TOO!

Thats enough for now.... As I said above, I will be in NY for a week, and will not have much access to the computer. SO HUGS TO ALL, and will miss you!